Life Journeys

Being frightened of the outcome of something does not mean you have to runaway from ever accomplishing it. About a month ago, I quit my job of being a nanny for a wonderful family. When I was even contemplating quitting, I had about 40 million questions going through my head; the biggest one being "Why even do this if they are nice and the pay is good?" When it came down to making my final decision in about November, I realized that staying where the 'people are nice and the pay is good' was me actually taking the easy road because I was scared of what could happen if I actually take a shot; A shot at life, a shot in believing in my abilities, and just a shot in believing in myself. I went through a series of job interviews from about a two weeks before my final day at work, due to finishing out the semester at school,  ALL THE WAY to just yesterday. The hardest things about putting yourself out there, in anything you do, are rejection, coping with the rejection, and being able to pick yourself back up again from that. For a while after the rejections for different conflicts including experience, scheduling, religious, etc, I started to feel discouraged and I VERY MUCH wanted to throw my towel into a fireplace and give up. I continuously applied to locations by simply checking if there was an opening and selection "apply". It became such an automatic motion that I had to research to remind myself who was calling and where for... which is a pretty bad look on a person...especially one coming in and wanting employ from that particular business/location. Then one day, I received a phone call from my sister and a friend of hers while they were in their study session. This lead me to probably one of the best opportunities that I had not even thought of before. When it comes to going to places or changing things up, I am a very 'go with what you know' kind of girl. For the most part, that has worked out pretty well for me, but, I guess, new decade, new perspective on life and a new way of doing things. I could not believe that a friendship, out of random happenstance, led me to find a job that is absolutely incredible! Sometimes, the best part about taking a chance, a risk, or putting yourself out there, is the amazing feeling you get when you see that success at the end of that dark tunnel. OH! Right. Explaining that picture. That is actually an eraser that breaks into six pieces and you have to put it back together. It accidentally broke apart on Sunday and I just figured out how to fix it on Tuesday. Yup. Just a whole nearly 3 days trying to figure out something. I did feel absolutely discouraged after about hour 6 trying to figure it out, but I did it and it felt SO good to complete it.